castlenightmare

You seem so far away, but you are standing near....

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 21:03:34 GMT

As everyone knows, I moved to North Carolina to be with my husband. I did it because I love him and wanted to be with him, of course I filled my head with scenes of Fantasia; happy little ponies with the mom and dad that had hearts in their eyes. The longer I am here I feel more like the Hippopotamus ballerina, out of place and rather silly, the scene ends with a curtain coming down and trapping the hippo, which i believe I have already done. Branden hardly pays attention to me, I've no job and one friend, so I've trapped myself in my own sort of curtain. Except no one is watching, my audience is back home, awaiting my performance, where I am no hippo.

The longer I ponder things, the more I miss home, I've never felt so lonely in my life with Branden never communicating with me, I often find myself in near tears thinking of the worst. Home, I was constantly surrounded by my friends, even if I were bored and alone, there would always be someone to go see. I regret not seeing some of my friends enough, ones i used to talk with and hang out with almost daily, they never did anything wrong, it kind of just...faded. I would say this is just a passing phase, but... I'm not so sure. Branden has spoken to me once in the past twelve hours,a week ago he would have called 4 or 5 times, he's acting distant and it feels more like we are roommates than a married couple. I ask him if he's alright, he will say he's fine, but ignores me and gets upset if i even speak his name.

I don't know what to do.

I want to be home.

The most fun I do on a daily basis is clean the house, I have no job so I cannot afford to go anywhere, cant even go to college as of yet. North Carolina is full of people, so you're really just a face in the crowd, where as back home everybody knew me, even people I went to school with that I may have said 5 words to my entire high school career, their parents would talk to me non-stop like I had been their BFF

In closing, NC sucks and brandens home, woohoo, have to make dinner

Woo

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 19:25:35 GMT

    Not much has been going on here. I've been going to the gym, I want to lose weight so I look better. :D I was in the christmas parade, and I was princess fiona from shrek, i even painted my face green xD It was so cold walking down main street, my paint froze on my face and cracked a little but oh well.

    I miss seeing people, but most I want to see are too far away. I get very busy and it was hard when Branden came home, so was jess, but I didn't think I was going to see Branden for like... 5 months, then she got mad at me, but hopefully I will get spend more time with her when she's up for x-mas break. I'm having a really hard time trying to figure out what to get jess for x-mas, but i kinda have an idea >)). I hope we stay BFF Jess , cause I know I suck a little. But I will forever wiggle at you.

    I really miss Eve, and I happened to be awake one night at like 3AM and we talked for a little while online, which was nice to hear from Eve again.   I remember when we all went to Freeport and saw all those neat little things ^.^; Eve I hope you do better in school soon. And when the time comes... you will come to America to see me! ^_____^!!!!!!

    I cant seem to sleep very well, I'll go to bed at like 59872352988 o clock, then still feel tired. But I'm sure that will pass.

    I dont really talk to Kyle anymore since he quit Wad's, which is sad, cause kaa is koo in my brain.

Food for thought....

Wed, 08 Aug 2007 04:30:50 GMT

Talking with someone, I've realised that people aren't all that different from another...

Especially if you thought someone was completely opposite from you, and you suddenly realise they can relate with you more than most...

Day off

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 17:22:00 GMT

I've been working a lot lately, I only got one day off this week , and I have to cram time in for all of my friends in this one day...

I've been trying to eat healthier, it works some days, and other days, it fails, like last night...oh well xD

It's Branden's birthday today, happy 19th birthday to him, though I cant see him, I will in a few months.. woo..

I want to get a tattoo soon >)

195

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 16:53:46 GMT

Branden's been gone for a little over a week now, though it has felt like 3084304322 years. Itmade me realise that he was there durring my off work time, now no one is. Though it doesnt help that I've been working a lot lately, 43 hours this week.... Hopefully 3 months will go by fast... christ

So I got a little brochure from the University of Maine, and I've been thinking about taking a few classes through them, and they are online classes so it seems pretty cool...to do while I finish up for my diploma :D

I believe I will start writing here more often.

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 04:13:51 GMT

And happy Independance Day to everyone

Kaa

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 04:12:58 GMT

Happy b-day Kyle, hope it was a good one!

:D

Places I would like to visit

Thu, 14 Jun 2007 19:24:10 GMT

I dont mind Maine, but there are places I wouldnt mind visiting, there are some places I would like to visit within the year, and some at least within my life....

Within the year:

Storyland :D - Before Branden leaves for basic, and hopefully someone else

Vermont - Fall
Funtown - >_> I have my brain cooking, if I cant get to storyland

Within My Life

Italy

California

Ireland

Hawyee

Scotland

Hong Kong

Canada

What do you think?

Sat, 09 Jun 2007 16:47:53 GMT

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\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 im good \par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 its said that u are leaving everyone is going to miss u \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 hope u have fun at prom \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 had \par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 (sad)\par
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\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 well im glad that u had a good time\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 it was a good prom but they had the wrong type of music for me \par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 so r u planning on coming back to america\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 ya i agree \par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 I hope I could coming back for visit soon, but I'm not sure i could because of the Gov.\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 ya i know what u mean \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 if you can check in with kt she would love to see u agen im sure but i might not be arround cause im joining the military\par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 Are you going to kill ppl?\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 hope not \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 but i have to do as im told and to protect myself so i can come back to kt \par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 I asked Kt to kill you before you to go to the army(I just kidding), then she said that she would be very miss you and hate herself if she did it.\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 she couldn't live without me shes told me that so i know that it will be tough for her \par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 Plx save yourself and try to not hurt ppl, I hate war a lot actually...\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 so what r u going to do when u get back to hong kong\par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 I might be go to profetional school to take a course. \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 sounds like fun\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 u must miss ur mom and everthing\par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 Kt said that she hates war too, but she doesn't want to stop what you want to do. She loves you a lot.^^ Plx save your life, I want to {\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 u try hard enough and set ur mind to it u can do anything so im sure u'll be back to say \par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 Yes, I do miss my family, friends and pets. I know my mom cried a lot! She doesn't want me to leave HK. \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 if kt and i end up getting a house ur invited anytime\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 u'll see her soon\par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 Sorry, did I make you anGry? I'm sorry.... I know my English doesn't good enough.\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 angry about what i'v never been angry at u \par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 o. that's good. "u try hard enough" this sentence like anGry, I'm sorry! I always mix up Chinese and English.\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 no its like u set ur mind to a goal and u want it enough you will achieve it \par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 o.. sorry, I didn't means that....\par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 i thought u had a little trubble understanding what it ment so i tryed putting it in a better way so u can understand it \par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 what is trubble?\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 like u didn't understand so i worded it so u could understand\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 troubble\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 i think its how its spelled\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 im not the greatest speller\par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 trouble?\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 thank u \par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 i guess its good that u can spell better then me\par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 no..><" I have check dictionary. I'm so stupid for language\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 u going to hang out with all of us before u leave\par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 yup!{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 well u do great when u hang out with us \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 well thats good i will make sure that i am there\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 ya then i leave not long after u \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 july 9\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 ><" I'm trying to listen what you guys talking about, but it's so hard. The culture difference is huge, I always said something wrong actually.\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 ya they say english is the hardest to learn\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 Kt has told me that. when are you coming back? Good luck,.^^ And I hope your wish come ture.^^\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 then on top of the we speak so fast that u don't understand half of it \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 and we use alot of slang words\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 words that are not in the dictionary\par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 Yea, slang words are very strange for me.\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 if i go to hong kong in myu travels i will ask kt were u live and i will come and visit and u can be my translater\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 when are you coming back? Good luck,.^^ And I hope your wish come ture.^^ Are you going to maRry with Kt? I hope I could join you and Kt's wedding.^^\par
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\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 i hope so i have taked to kt about a little bit but i haven't asked her how she felt about it \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 ^^ She loves you so much that I could tell.\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 ya so much she can't believe that she is dateing me \par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 ya \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 Bonnie told me that you treat Kt very well. I'm glad Kt having you.\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 well this is the firsttime i have had a conversation with u \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 ya i treat her like she is the best thing in the world but thats because she is \par
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\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 (first time)\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 for the one above i sent u \par
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 yea! I'm sorry, I always confuse you!{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 no that was one of my mistakes in one of the messages i sent you \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 haha..\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 but if im in hong kong i will stop by and say hi\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 in my travels in the military\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 no.><" I don't hope you are coming to HK when you're in the military.{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 Do you means that just for travels in the military? I confuse. \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 if i get sent to hong kong when i am in the army i will stop and say hi \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 but I'm very welcome you come to HK!^^ I will take you to come fun places and eat Chinese food!^^\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 yeah\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
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\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1{\pict\wmetafile0
}\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
} says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 I don't really like to say good{\pict\wmetafile0
} to anything and anyone just like the day I leave HK and come to here. \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
} says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 I think I will be like that when I leave here.\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 ya i don't like good byes either\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
} says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 ><" good{\pict\wmetafile0
} is terrible..{\pict\wmetafile0
}\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 ya i know \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 but somtimes it has to be done \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
} says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1{\pict\wmetafile0
}{\pict\wmetafile0
}{\pict\wmetafile0
}\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 well it was nice to talk with u but im sure i will see you agen but i got to go home \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
} says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1{\pict\wmetafile0
}{\pict\wmetafile0
} talk to you soon\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
} says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 and {\pict\wmetafile0
} you soon\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 ttyl Branden (TTYL) means talk to u later\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
} says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 yup! heeheeeeeee. You are so nice, Branden\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 most people think i am not before they get to meet me but when they do the see me as a different person. thanx see you later nice talking with u \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
} says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 I {\pict\wmetafile0
}. {\pict\wmetafile0
}\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2{\pict\wmetafile0
}\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
} says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 have a nice day\par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 Captain Sunkissed says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f2 u to \par
\pard\li72\ri18\tx720\cf1\f0 *red+u Bean{\pict\wmetafile0
} says:\par
\pard\li277\ri18\tx720\cf2\f1 Thx!^^\cf0\f0\par
}

^_^

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 14:25:09 GMT

Happy Chinese New Year, Eve!

I hope it's a good day for you.

Valentine

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 22:25:34 GMT

Ahh, the day is comming up, the day of love, Valentine's Day.

As usual, alone, I will be alone for it, as I am every year.

Though this year, I will try not to be miserable about it xD as Devon knows, it isnt working

But there are plenty of people in the world that lonely

People are lonely all year round, so why does Valentine's day depress the most?

It's about people you care for, and love, so I guess you arent completly alone.

Idunno how I will spend mine, maybe some cookies and a movie with someone, if not, zippa and autumn wont mind doing that with me. :D

late night chicken

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 02:27:41 GMT

I cant wait for this week to be over, it's been dragging by. Laser Tag Friday!!!!!! ^_^ I cant wait!!

I stressed out earlier, bonnie hasnt been cleaning, so i did a bunch over the past t wo days even though i didnt have the time to really. It's her b-day this saturday, I hope she will like what I'm getting her.

I still need to play Candyland with Jess

>_>

Candy Land

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 01:19:28 GMT

    I love hanging out with my friends, I wish we could do it for more than two hours on one day, but I guess our schedules are so busy that we dont have a lot of time anymore, which is sad.

    I've realised there are quite a few guys, [well, more than ever in my life] have this thing for me lately, it's confusing really, though I do enjoy it, I believe I want Joe, though he seems to be the least interested.

       I bought Candy Land today, I'm excited, though the game has changed, the psychical looks of it, it's no longer 12 squares and you win xD I hope everyone plays with me ^_^

<33 I love life <33

New years :D

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 17:11:49 GMT

Everyone should start showing up around 8 ish: so I have time to get ready.

So there might be 3 extra people showing up : Jeremy, Brandon, and Tyler xD Woo!

Anyway... Foods:

Hawaiian Chicken

Onion Things

Spinach Dip

Cheese Ball + Crackers

Chips

Homemade Chocolates

Homemade Fudge

Ketchup... lots xD

RAAANCH

Drinks:

It would help if ppl brought their favorite soda or w/e But I'm obviously gonna have shiz like

Tea

Milk

Coffee

Rootbeer

A special drink thingy >_>

And We're gonna have the

                                                                       N64 Tounrament :D

Ahem... >_>

Yiss....


                                   There are two N64's, four people get on each one and will play Mario Kart, whoever gets 1st on one N64, will go against whoever got 1st on the other N64, the left over people will do the same, whoever gets 1st, goes against, whoever wins, wins. It will be a grand-prix style thing, you go through 4 of the easy-cup races : Luigi Raceway, Moo Moo Farm, Koopa Troopa Beach, and Kalamari Desert; all at 50CC. The Final Race between all the best racers will be placed on Rainbow Road; at 150CC.

To whoever is interested, could play 007 Goldeneye, Super Smash Bros, or Mario Party 1 - 4.    I've also Got a Game Cube that games could be played on. Just dont break my systems ;-;

This will take place before the ball drops.

After we watch the ball drop on the Television, we can zoom outside if we want and light sparklers >_> I have a lot of them.

Then we can sit around and watch movies :D

x-mas, mmsucks, zelda rocks <3

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 16:53:59 GMT

Christmas was alright, I didnt do much except sleep,the house was clean though, which was nice, I dont think my mom really likes her dish washer, which makes me sad, I got to see jess and wayne, which was koo ^^ then i got to my grandma's , and i missed the whole family pretty much =( then we came home, the house isnt clean anymore..i hate it, and my mom doesnt help clean at all, except do dishes and laundry sometimes. We didnt even have a christmas dinner, we had some steak with potatoes, I was kinda dissapointed...along with no snow, it didnt even feel like christmas.. I got a lot of nice gifts though.

I have to work today; 3 -12, same as thursday,and saturday, I work friday 3-6, and I worked 4 hours Sunday...that's a lot of hours, so it's not even really a vacation for me...

New Years I'm having my normal party with my friends, but more people this time. I hope it will be good, so far I know these people are comming:

Me
Bonz
Jess
Eve
Devon
Wayne
Dane?
Kyleen maybe?
Tyler?

I would ask Mandy to come over, but I dunno if she would want to, seeing as she has friends at her appartment, and they are over 21... I kinda wish she would chill with us, but alcohol/weed > me

I am getting back into my Video Game Vibe, which is awesome, I got the new zelda game, and like always, I cant jump to save my life xD

I've gotta start making plans for New Years, with food, and games, and shizzzzzzzzzzzz, maybe an N64 - tournament? >}

Gimme Ideas

I'll show you my dark secret...

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 15:30:39 GMT

I'm confused....

Ktrav :D

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 03:43:41 GMT

^_^

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 14:30:02 GMT

Happy 18th Birthday Jess!

^_^

Thanksgiving?

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 14:51:54 GMT

Isn't Thanksgiving suppose to be with family? Where they sit down TOGETHER and eat and be happy? At least that's what I thought. My grandmother, grandfather, aunt and uncle are all comming, but everyone is eatting downstairs, except Bonnie and I. At least they're comming, so I guess I should be happy about that. :/ Hopefully my Saturday t-day Will go better?

For the past week I've been trying to find someone to take my shift friday, or switch with me, Jeremy said he would if he couldnt find anyone, well...that didnt happen. Jess will probably be pissed at me for a while, along with everyone else in the group. My manager already knows about it, so I can't really call in. I've alreayd got her b-day present, but I'm going to do something else for it, hopefully she wont be too mad, and break it. ;-; At least it won't snow on her birthday, like it did last year. Since I'm pretty much missing hers, I won't plan anything for my 18th, so it would be fair to her.

Thanksgiving is about being thankful for things, though it has grown into just family getting together, and eatting. I think I've only done what I'm thankful for, once. So I believe it's time again to recap what I am thankful for.

Jess - Being completely insane with me for the past 7 years, always being my friend, I care about her a lot, even though she may not think so because of me not going to the concert. Her running to my house at 1 AM in -35º winter, staying up all night, getting rained on if we ever slept outside. She's the friend I've had the longest while staying in close contact with, and always will be my friend, even if she's 5092349052 miles away from my soul. BBQ

Devon - Keeping me from burning Mister Market to the ground, or telling my managers exactly where they can shove their 're-packs' Carefully insulting every moron we come in contact with, like Jess , has been my friend for a long time. She will never leave this state, you know why? Because I will bury her into my yard :F

Bonz - My mommy, I love her,even if I am mad at her most of the time.

The cool parts of my family - It's where I get my crazy from ^_~

Mandy - My chu,also my newest friend, I havent seen much of her lately, but I will.

Laura - Would definately have to be my oldest friend, and has been through so much with me, popstand will live on with us.

Kaa - Deal with me, and is a good friend, seems to get pissy with me, but I know better. >_>

Mr. Winkey Furball Thum - I will miss him, the 2nd Thanksgiving without him.

Zippa - My puppy ^_^, loves me no matter what.

Autumn - My new kitty that seconds as my shadow.

Trav - My bf that is nice to me when he wants to be.

Omgomgomgogmg Turkey and pie and and and and and PARADE AND CHARLIE BROWN AND MORE TURKEY, POTATOES, AND GRAVY, ROLLS FOOOOOOOOOOOD TURKEYYYYYYY HEAVEN AND ANDNA DNA NO COW CAFE >D 70'S SHOW ALL DAY AND PIIIIIIE <333

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone <33

>/

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 04:04:10 GMT

</3 Mean old ladies sorry to jesswayne if i acted emo after ;-;

Blahhhhh

Sat, 07 Oct 2006 13:28:12 GMT

I've been seriously debating wether or not to quit MM, but looking for a job before that. But it's Convienent if i do want time off, but its suffocating me to hell, working me all day,a nd i cant get shit done, i hate freight so much

>/////

But where would I work?

Fryeburg Pt. II

Sat, 07 Oct 2006 12:45:50 GMT

It was 5982385293 fun ^_^ with zoom rides and food and yummies ans stuffs. but I reaslised on my way home that it would prob. be our last Fryeburg Fair all with each other, and I almost cried. In all I had a pretty good night, and as always I fell asleep on the way home.

<3KtTravJessWayneDevKaaBonz<3

"I want to thank you, for giving me the best day of my life."

Fryeburg :D

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 18:47:08 GMT

I cant wait ^__^

Zoomin' around with all my friends and gobbling like turkies and andn beal st @.@;;;;;;;;;;;;;; SSSSSsssssssssssssssssss

Buying a camera later so i canhave one, because mine got eatten.

I hope we will all have a 50987230959032 much good time tomorrow

Its not always easy...

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 03:36:44 GMT

It's been a year now, and it still makes me cry when I think about it... I loved that cat. Yuo dont really notice the impact something has had on you until its gone. To come to a realization that nothing lasts forever

Winkey dances in the skies with Crutong

9-7-05 <3

Rainstorm, takes me away from the North...

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 14:13:50 GMT

God. Summer is over and it feels as if I've done nothing the whole time. My friends and I are all seniors now, then off to college by this time next year. Years of being together, building stronger,and better bridges...just to eventually lose them on some level. We have to though, if we want to get anywhere in life,which is kind of sad if you think about it..

My mom's already talking about heating oil stuff, which makes me sad, because that means it will be winter soon, and no sunlight. I want to do something nice for her this Christmas, not only with gifts, but maybe with breakfast and a good cup of coffee? I'm not sure,I'll think of something. I want the divorce to end soon, so my mom can stop being in debt at some point in her life.

I need to shower, and do some laundry, and get ready for work, and school...

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